I hate highschool.

I'm going to Spain

I've never been a very religious person. I was raised Catholic and quickly began to doubt the things I was taught. Heaven and Hell were questionable to me. Eventually I lost whatever Christian faith I had. In recent...mmn let's say months, I've been more and more interested in eastern world religions, philosophies, etc.

A couple nights ago, I went on a burn cruise with some friends. Just a few girls, with nothing to do tokin up. One of my friends with me has been raised with a loose Buddhist background. Needless to say, we discussed much in our mind's altered state that night.

I don't remember much, but we basically created a religion that night. We listened to some Pink Floyd, obviously. Dark Side of the Moon, Wish You Were Here. All that good stuff. It may sound stupid now, but we connected with the music. In a way I never had before. It became apart of us. We felt connected to Roger Waters, and what he had to say and feel when he was making music. It was amazing.

Some things we reasoned about the world: (note-some, or most originated from Buddhism, Yoga etc.)

When you're high, your mind is able to be open. It is free and uncluttered, like in Yoga. Your whole life is searching for that eternal bliss and peace. When you're high, or making incredible music, or making art or WHATEVER, that is a glimpse at the bliss. My friend and I both feel we have focus issues. Slight ADD. We figured, when our mind is going in different directions and thinking about little things, it equals out to nothing. We don't need to think about anything at that moment, we are clean and clear and blissful.

Karma. Everything happens for a reason. Everything you ever did in your life, you were supposed to do. Every choice you made, you were supposed to make. If you weren't supposed to, you wouldn't have. Everything on the planet is here for a reason. Anything bad that happened to you, was to teach you something, to better you, or to punish you for something you did in a previous life. There is never any need to be worried, or have regrets. What is going to happen is going to happen. And the people that realize it and accept it into their life are blissful.

Your soul, is a part of God. God is not a person, God is everything. And you are a part of God. Everything is God. When you have finished all your lives, and reached bliss, you will become part of everything. There are stages to life. You may start out as a bug, and then die because you are done being a bug, and you need to move on and become something else to reach your bliss. Reincarnation. Okay, I'm going to use Janis Joplin as an example. She died of a drug over dose. So maybe, this is what we were thinking; Janis used drugs to get her mind open, and clear. Her bliss. And she died of a drug overdose because the drugs couldn't clear her mind anymore, she was ready to go to the new level and reach bliss. And why is it bad? Why is anything bad?

The people who do not allow their mind to be cleared, are running the country. I'm a peaceful person, and I generally am not hardcore against the government, that said. I'm also very liberal and feel a lot or wrong is being done. The people who run our country are so closeminded, they cannot even begin to accept that marijuana or anything else is supposed to be on the planet, is supposed to be smoked. (If it wasn't supposed to be, it wouldn't be here right? Everything happens for a reason.) They set limits, and rules, when everyone should just be free. They push down on us, and it's so hard to be free and accepting of everything when we are all taught, brainwashed, since we were young children that all this is bad. Drugs, are a high. Sex is a high. Both are characterized as less than holy. (the pre marital type anyway, in regards to sex). Because it feels good, it is bad. Living in America, is difficult when you want to be free. Home of the brave..

In conclusion. This was an amazing night. It may sound stupid, but I felt incredible. We all connected. What we said and felt we truely believed and that's as close as I've been to being "saved".
As our high melted away, I was so scared I would forget everything we said and I kept requesting we right all this shit down. But I knew if I was meant to know it, I would. And now I feel the need to right all this shit down.

Peace and Love